I guess some feelings will never come out well I can’t let them

they’ll distract me from my goal.

I see the vision, it’s bigger than you and I, you would be in it if this was a fairytale.

I’m so in love with your aura,

you make me feel like I’m the only one in the room, you look at me and the world stops.


How you do that?

Thoughts of you leaving are the scariest,

we’ve never discussed this but baby please don’t let go.

Hours and hours go by next thing I know its been years how exhausting this is, never making sense because you obstruct my vision.

I’m trying to protect you from me don’t you see?

I’m a mess my head isn’t in the right place are you sure you’re ready for this?

I’ve always been a little bit too much into you but do you ever think this would work?

We spend hours talking but I don’t think you ever listen you’re just “listening to reply” I guess.
The rest of your entourage is waiting on you, I don’t really matter when it’s all about YOU.

My feelings my existence all doesn’t count when you’re around not physically but mentally you just take over I guess you’re the dominant one.

I’m so in love with you and I hope you know but sometimes you don’t get your fairytale ending so tell me will you let go if stop chasing you?

It’s all a mind game that you’re into and i “pretend” to be into it too, gets a little bit too much for the kid.

We never really discuss this but will you ever be ready for me?
I play it cool but I’m so scared,

I mean do you ever think of me?

I spend so long thinking it’s me?

I realized if someone really wants you they won’t just use words but they’ll chase you, i mean why does everything have to be so one sided?

Unreciprocated love doesn’t make sense when I can love myself.

Let go and everything else just made more sense.

You was never meant for me I just got blinded by the illusion of love.

– Rica

3 thoughts on “Illusion

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